I prayed earlier tonight for my mom and for my serenity. I’m a bit nervous knowing that tomorrow morning is my mom’s surgery. I would be more at ease if I were home with her. Instead, I’m in my dorm room lying in bed listening to Lana Del Rey(yeah go ahead and judge me all you LDR haters). My mom and I knew that surgery was the only option left to get rid of the tumors and better her health, its just we weren’t expecting the date to come so soon. Last week it was as if my mom was signing her life away to the hospital’s waiver. The fact that the waiver claimed that things may go wrong during the surgery made me more nervous and uneasy. For the past few weeks my mom and I have been spending as much time as we possibly can together before her operation. Earlier today I had lunch with my mom at Fashion Island. She could easily tell that I was scared and told me that I shouldn’t be. Its good to know that she isn’t anxious about tomorrow, and its somewhat funny to know that I’m the one who is the most anxious. However my mom is dreading one thing about her surgery and its the two month recovery. I told her to see it as a vacation to make her feel better, but we both know its going to be a long tiring process for her body to fully heal. I’ll make sure to come home every chance that I get so I can help out.
Anyways, I’ll pray one more time before I go to sleep and try my hardest to keep my mind at ease.